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Name: Rachel
Interests: people, talking, screaming, chocolate, music, movies, ice cream, shopping, IMing, the UN, umm, did I mention shopping, magazines, phoning people, daydreaming, laughing, singing (especially in the shower), make-up, oh yeah and shopping
Expertise: screaming, squealing, screeching-I do it only when happy and excited, I love it!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Nonprofit
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Member Since:
4/4/2004
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| Wow, here I am a month after graduation and a day before I fly to begin anew. I can't believe it's time. Sort of funny how I never could imagine life after highschool and I'm living it now. I've spent my entire week packing and chucking things I've been keeping b/c I thought I needed it but I came to my senses and finally came to the realization that I actually don't need those things. Believe it or not I actually fit everything I wanted to into four suitcases, three boxes and a little space in my bros and moms suitcases... (how unfair of them to change the weight limit when it's my turn to move overseas). So this month has been alright, besides boredom I've been dealing with the pain of goodbyes (shocker), sleeping, shopping, hanging our with ppl. you know the usual stuff. A little while ago I also went to visit my roomie for the weekend that was also a lot of fun. Oh and of course I watched a ton of soccer, some of those boys are fine!!!! 
I love airports (well, umm Düsseldorf) but apparently my airline is on strike this week.... so we'll see if I actually end up in the states or maybe we'll just be stranded for a week in Spain how interesting ( perhaps I should watch 'the terminal' to fresh up my memory on how to live in an airport.
So, tomorrow, if we do make it across the big lake, I get to see my brother and be with him for a few days. And then I'm off to get my permit on friday (another thing I never thought would happen). On monday I'm off to freshmen oreantation (I have no idea why it's so early) and the rest of the sommer will be one of those try to see all fivehundred relatives all the supporters and all the other ppl. that supposedly know you even though you're positive you've never seen them i your life type thing. Well, I hope y'all are having a great time wherever you may be. My dear friends do know that I miss you and send me your phone #'s so we can catch up. I miss y'all so much. Lots of love, kisses and hugs, Rachel | | |
| I too, as many of my fellow BFA senior's have been thinking about the rather busy, painful and exciting weeks that are right ahead of us. Really and truly we are all ready to get out, start a new life, be our own person and make our own decisions. But good doesn't come without a price (principle # 1: people make tradeoffs- go u economics ppl!) it pains me to think what I will have to say goodbye to so that I too can grow up. It really isn't the buildings I will miss (although it sort of sucks that we only have 7 weeks to enjoy that new library) or the work or many other things that have part in my everyday life. But there is so much more, little stuff, like sitting at the table eating snack after a long day of school and laughing about the terribly embarassing moments that happened to each of us throughout the day; or laying on the couch with Krista and Andrea, watching the Sonne guys through the huge window as they walk over to come for a visit; it's getting that smile from a friend on that terrible day, it's watching a movie in class that really has nothing to do with the lesson, it's getting in trouble because you're in Rita's and Krista's room during study hours, it's going on that walk with someone and feeling your heart pound so hard because you really love him; it's that bus ride in the morning when your really out of it but having a really deep conversation, it's getting that hug from someone randomly during the day, it's screaming every time you see your friends, it's flirting with every guy with them knowing that it's all in good fun, it's walking around Kandern with your friends trying to find something to do, and it's so much more...
I'm so glad I still have some time to enjoy these things and in time it will all be over but it will all be good. I hope y'all enjoy these last days with the people we truly have learned to love. Don't take it for granted. Love y'all Rachel | | |
| So I decided to sort of standardize my MySpace and my Xanga (at least for this entry, because I'm too lazy to write too different things, and I mean I am the same person for both, right, anyway:
What a year....
Wow, who would have thought, I'm actually on break, and I'm choosing to be alone, how weird is that, but I love it. I love just sitting here in the quietness of my room, with believe it or not Michael Jackson playing in the background (you know the classics-amazing!). Freaky how things change (last year I wouldn't even have thought about listening to that!), but as I think about it, so much has changed this year, it's incredible! So much has happened, I can't believe it. I learned so much.
*I learned that waiting to write a ten page paper til the night before makes you a freakin caffeine addict.
*I've learned that no sleep, caffeine and sugar= insane mood swings.
*I've learned that the tanning booth really doesn't do much for my skin tone but it sure helps with a cold oh and it's mega relaxing.
*I learned that I occasionally can catch a football (if I try hard enough and squeal loud enough)-but I'm still hopeless when it comes to basketball.
*I learned that H&M also has a few bad months in which they don't have any clothes you even care to try on.
*I learned that people can't give me everything I need.
*I've learned that being alone is sometimes so much more fulfilling than constantly being around people.
*I learned that sometimes life just completely sucks.
*I learned that chocolate is essential to my well-being.
*I learned that no matter how hard you try you can't make yourself fall in love.
*I learned that even the biggest smile can't soothe the pain you feel.
*I learned that letting go of a friend hurts but holding on to him hurts more.
*I've learned that hiding doesn't get you anywhere.
*I've learned that friends are amazing, wonderful and awesome but they are also the ones to cause the most pain.
*I learned that feeling is so much easier than pretending to be okay.
And theres so much more I've learned. This year has probably been one of the hardest but it's been okay. Yet again another year has passed. I have gained many friends and lost many. I have laughed a ton and cried some more. I have loved and I have failed to love. I have succeeded and lost. But most of all this year has taught me something I wasn't willing to accept. That growing up is simply a part of life, whether I want it or not and whether you know it or not it just happens (now I'm not saying I'm any more mature), suck it up! So yeah, that was my thought for- the year- I guess. All in all it was great, thanks to all who made it what it was! Have a great New Year, stay out of trouble,Love y'all! Rachel
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| Whoaness, it's been like forever since I last wrote, so much has happened. Senior year is a lot more stressful than I thought it would be (so much for being a slacker!), not doing so hot on the college applications either, and I miss last years seniors like mega much, but besides these few MINOR details life is goin good. I'm getting to know ppl. (esp. Ashley, Chris and Jason) a lot better than last year, and relationships are at a lot deeper level than they have been which is exactly what I've been waiting for, for the last 3 yrs.. The dorm is way different too, but I love all the new girls, their great! Senior trip was interesting and a lot of fun,I must say, ppl get pretty weird when they drink 5 cups of coffee, eat 6 scoops of ice cream, a ton of chocolate and haven't slept for 2 nights.... Well, I think I've done a good job letting my study hall waste away, a fantabulous day to all those who read this, love y'all, Rachel | | |
| Wow, so this is my first entry after, let's see having this site for over 500 days (ups, I actually forgot that I had this website until Kay wrote something in my guestbook) but didn't feel motivated to write anything until my dear friend encouraged me to (thanx Heidi). Anyway, so this summer has gone by way to fast (it actually creeps me out) and exactly in one week I should be back in the dorm unpacking (another scary thought). My summer has been quite eventful at times, and then at others not at all. I went to the states with my dad visited my broher, went to nerd camp (it was awesome), saw family, visited colleges (the scariest thought of all) and realized that time just keeps on flying by super fast. So now I'm in germany doing stuff with friends, frantically trying to get all the college stuff done before I go back to school and trying to get myself to read the most terrible book I have ever tried to force myself to read (it isn't working, this is not a good foreshadowing for next years english class) yeah, so anyway, love y'all (well, I guess anyone can read this, so I love those who know they are loved by me, wait does that make any sense?) yeah, so have a fantabulous day, bye, Rachel | | |
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